New Friend Date

Hi. I went on a fun date. This guys name is Justin. We went to a movie and ice cream. He's sweet. He opened doors for me like a gentleman and offered to pay for everything. I'm attempting to be reasonable and not really get serious with anyone. So he's just a cute friend for now. 

Anyway, things are going good with school. I love what I do. I've been stressed about it feeling like I am not as good as I want to be with graphics and websites yet. But Aunt Julie says she felt that way too at graduation, so I feel better.

I'm getting along with ALL of my roommates this semester. I am loving that. I'm kinda distracted so this blog isn't really making tons of sense. I'm talking to Kaylee... so I better go and pay attention better! Love ya'll

2 pounds!

So after a terribly depressing and stressful week I went to Weight Watchers today expecting to have gained a few pounds (due to bad eating) and to my great surprise, I lost 2 pounds!!! Yes!

That brightened my day today along with the sunshine that was so abundant today! Happiness all around!

Let the Spring Time Come!

Hi Everyone,
I've been super super depressed the past few weeks. I am not sure what to write about it. I don't know that there is any advice anyone could give me that I haven't already heard and probably tried. I think it's partly just due to the cloudy skies and gray days. It's all that seasonal depression stuff.
I've been trying to stay active and eat right and sleep well in order to shake it off. But I feel really negative and hopeless. You can tell yourself positive things as much as you want, but some days it just isn't going to get in.

This stuff isn't very fun to read about on a blog I'm sure anyway, so I wont go on and on and on about it. I hope some day soon I feel like my old happy self. It's been a very long time. :(

Your friend,
Heidi

Back To It

Well I am back to school for my FINAL semester!
I can't tell you how happy that makes me! For a long long time I thought I was just not disciplined enough to finish college, but it just goes to show that as long as you're willing to pay money, they'll keep trying to educate you!

I went to my first class today. It's a Portfolio class. You know what they announced? They announced that because of the terrible budget cuts, they were not able to have the faculty they needed for all the classes this semester and so they're cutting my class down to one day a week. Boy am I glad I'm graduating and not just starting with all this budget crisis going on. Its getting really ugly.

I've been unexplainably depressed for the past 3 or 4 days. It was BAD. Thankfully, I feel a bit better today. I think getting back to classes really helped. That and I joined a gym and Weight Watchers today. I'm going for all out healthy.

My newest roommate moved in on the 1st. She is just 18 and it's her first time at college. I showed her around yesterday and the day before. I showed her how to get books and I sat in on her English 1010 class. It was a lot of fun. Reminded me so much of my first day of school. I ALMOST felt sorry that I'll be graduating and leaving college. But then I remembered how much debt I have to pay off from this grand adventure! lol.

Yeah, so anyways, that roommate and another one have been hanging out with me a lot the past two days. They've almost been looking to me as some sort of example... Talk about uncomfortable! No, I'm flattered... I really am... Its just that, WHO looks to ME as an example! lol! I had to laugh at myself for feeling so uncomfortable. It's probably really good for me.

Anyway, this blog is getting verbose and its 2 a.m. and I'm supposedly getting up and working out with Kaylee at 6 with our new gym memberships! So I best be off.

Christmastime Pictures

Here's a few of the pictures from Christmas time. The one with me and the three ladies you probably don't know is of my boss and coworkers. We had a Christmas lunch just before I left for the break. I love working at the Women's Center!

Poor Buddy has had that Victorian collar/bucket on his head for several weeks! He doesn't get it off until at least next week. He had his dew claws removed and it takes a long time to heal.

Aunt Julie made a great gingerbread christmas tree with Andrea and her kids. Then a few days later she made on with Elisa and her boys. I didn't get pictures of that event.
Little Brooklyn just loves her new piano!

At any rate, that's all for now. I sure have had a fun Christmas vacation! Can't believe it's almost time for school to start again! Only one more semester! WOO!

Merry Christmas!

Hello and a very Merry Christmas to all! It's been a good day here with the family. With all my siblings grown up and moved away this year we had a rather extended celebration. Because of weather my sister was not going to be here so we opened presents with them 2 days ago and then we opened presents with my other sister and my brother and their families this morning at her house.

I tried to feel the Christmas spirit this season, but I have felt it only for an instant last night. It's been a dark and difficult year. I have gained much. It has been through heavy heavy heartache that I have survived though. Please don't get me wrong, I have been so blessed! Sometimes lifes learning hurts. Over the past while I've sunk into a dark and lonely sadness and I'm afraid to say my flame of hope has diminished significantly. Months stacked on months of darkness and misunderstanding can do that to a person.

There's a few things I am trying to do to come back from this devastation. I'm trying to think more positively about things. (This is VERY difficult when you've gotten into a negative pattern). I'm also trying to just tell myself hopeful things even if I don't believe me right now. I'm trying to hope that our Father in Heaven will help me.

Sounds pretty awful doesn't it. I hope it turns out right. :s I'm trying to be resilient. Is it the 4th watch yet?

Man Shopping

Nothing much going on now. I'm working a bit more this week to help pay for Christmas presents. I'm excited to be going home soon. Looking forward to hanging out with the loved ones.

I hate shopping for men! It is difficult! With women, or children it is easy. There are all manner of delightful little nothings you can get for them, but men are so difficult! You have the choice of spending a whole ton of money on something they'll really like, food, socks, or a gift card. How boring is that to give every year! Don't the men get bored of receiving these gifts? (Other than the super expensive ones of course). Sigh. It's not their fault... they're just tough. :(

Dreamin' again.

I had the best dream last night. I was playing with this darling little baby boy! He was giggling and throwing his toys and playing all sorts of fun games with me. We were sitting on the floor next to a couch and there were a few other little kids around. I loved that baby so much! It's crazy. I was so sad to wake up and not have him. Oh well. I was a little relieved to wake up and not have to change a diaper or deal with spit up, etc. lol.

I hope I get a baby someday. :)

A-

Sweet! The first of my grades has come in. It was for Logo Design. I got an A-!!! I am excited about that because I was just praying for a B- in all of my classes! I really do feel like I've grown a lot in my design skills. I still need lots of practice, no doubt, but I have come a long way.

Today some girls from my Design class and I are hopefully going swimming. The snow may prevent us... We'll see. Unlike this picture above, we will all be wearing suits and none of us will be male. :D Apparently this artist painted this picture of all his art students taking a bath. Is that guy on the rock going to pinch the other guy's bum???? hmmmm..... kinky.

Finished

I made it everyone! I just turned in my last final a few hours ago! YEA!!! I am feeling so great right now! Other than the stupid cold! Well I guess that's what I get for putting myself through all that stress without appropriate sleep, food or exercise.

So I'm working on a campaign for the Women's Center. I'm trying to come up with something inspiring to; 1. spread awareness about our office and 2. inspire people to help by donating to our scholarship funds. Anyone got any catchy phrase ideas that could go on a t-shirt or poster?

3 down. One to go.

It's impressive what a bucket-load of make-up can do for the un-dead. I had my portfolio final this morning and we were supposed to come looking our best. Well, since I've only gotten 3 or 4 sporadic hours of sleep in the past week, I was amazed that I was able to pull this off. Granted, if you got any closer than 10 feet away from me you probably could see through all that make up! I am sick as a dog! I've just about lost my voice and I feel like crap! But all my hard finals are finished and I only have one left on Teusday, so I am a happy happy happy girl!

Hmmm... now that I look at the pictures, I am not so sure I agree with the decision of hairdo. Those bangs are .... Well anyway, I am finished.

It feels so wrong not to be working on a HUGE project right now! lol. Yeah!

By the way, the 2nd vacuum that "mysteriously" dissapeared last week has been found. It has not been returned yet, but it has been found. Sigh. One of Monica's friends came and took it without asking. Not cool.

But now I'm just rambling. I'm going to go take a long awaited rest! Hugs and kisses for everyone!