Thursday, October 30, 2008

How do YOU feel today?

Weeeeee! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! Splooosh! (Other horrible grinding noises) Bleh! Pllllbbbbttt!!!







Thud thud thud thud thud!

"It's hopeless doctor!"

....Beedeet beedeet beedeet... beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....


!!! ZAP!!!!


...beedeet beedeet beedeet...


*clap clap clap clap*

"here we go again."

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


Yea. I stood in line, got the little electronic card thingy, cast my ballot and got a happy little sticker. It actually just said, "I voted", but this one was already up online and I'm too lazy to scan in the one they gave me.

I am really tired of school tonight. There's 3 things due tomorrow and I've been on task all day and yet I'm nowhere close to finished. Frustrating. Well I better get back to it.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Just not right

You have to know that you're taking a risk when you cook something from a box whose pour spout has a drawing of a bunny butt on it!

Annie's Abomination.
That's what I call this mac and cheese. And it was. I ate this 4 hours before bed and 3 hours into my sleep I woke up with terrible pains in my stomach and spent an hour in the bathroom. I really think they put rabbit turds in their noodles! OYE! Never again!But in other news, Life is good. It's been super busy this semester. I'll be really busy all the way through December. I think it was way too soon to put together a countdown chain. I am all sorts of antsy to get through with school and waiting the last 7 months is killer. Oh well. It's worth it.

Here's a photo I took of myself the day I had to give a portfolio presentation last week. I was going for professional, yet fun. I think I'd add a little more "fun" next time. But this is what I had time for.
I did buy some awesome shoes though. These were 16 bucks. Pretty good. huh.

Im kinda lonley tonight. Miss my family. sigh. Anyway, everyone have a good week!

Friday, October 17, 2008

A miracle here and a miracle there...

I have a friend who was severely neglected as a child and throughout his whole life. I've known him for a few years now. He learned at a very young age that the ONLY way to survive (literally and emotionally) was to do everything for yourself. He learned that if he never "needed" anything from anyone, no one could hurt him. He began cooking his own meals as a toddler. For as long as I've known him he has had a rock solid defense and nothing emotional (good or bad) got in and nothing came out.

He spoke about feeling empty and ailen from the world. It makes perfect sense to me considering what he had to live through up to this point. He truly did not allow himself to feel anything. Nothing at all... indifference.

This last week he told me about an experience he had the week before. By some miracle he was able to feel something so deeply that it totally threw him! I have never heard him speak in any manner other than pure elloquence, but when he told this story he stuttered BAD and he shook. I know this sounds kind of common for someone who's gone through something emotional, but you don't know this guy. He truly was the ROCK. NOTHING got in. I'm not exaggerating!

Anyway, he said he doesn't know how the rest of the world does this whole thing where they have to feel things. Because it scares him (I'm assuming on that part). I was way sad that the emotion he experienced had to be such a painful one, but I've been praying for him for several years now and to see him make a step in the right direction; especially a step this big... Was miraculous! I am so excited for him. I know he's got a long Hellish road to travel, but I feel like he's going to make it and I can hardly contain my excitement for him!

Another miracle... Sweet little Brooklyn is starting to walk. She walked for me today. It was SO cute! You can tell she is SO proud of herself! She giggles and grins like crazy about it. I just want to squeeze that cute little baby! Oh I love her!

And I finished my website on time and my logo and I will finish my portfolio on time. Another miracle. Among several more that I can think of as profound. :D

I'm in a good mood this morning. I couldn't sleep cuz I kept daydreaming so I thought I'd get up and type about all the things I was so happily thinking about.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

A Bad Omen

So I went out to my car this morning to find 3 dead katiedids in front of the driver-side door! I had to pause for a moment and collect myself as it seemed so much that they were the katiedids from my dream come back to die in front of my car as if to say that it was MY fault for shoving them out into the cold! lol. What a way to start your morning.

Today has been a FABULOUS day! I finished and turned in my html website and although I don't like the finished product as much as I could, I'm done and it isn't stressing me out tonight so YEAH! Shaweeeeet! I feel great! AND I finished and turned in a logo for my other design class. AND I found out that my other HUGE project isn't due until next week, so I can actually breathe a little and work on that this weekend. Truly it was a mirical that I was able to get these things done this week. Yes, I have thanked Father in Heaven in my prayers!... Profusely!

So I'm in a good mood and kinda talkative but I'm going to stop myself because it's nearly 1 in the morning and I should try to sleep so I can work on that other huge assignment before Tuesday. Anyway- peace and love and kisses to everyone tonight!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

More strange dreams

So I fell asleep doing homework today and had the strangest dream. I was lost in this huge house that was like a giant - multi-level RC-Willey or Ikea. All these different rooms that were decorated so nicely. I was playing with a baby and 2 little girls while also looking for their mother. Anyway, I found her and told her how great her children were. Then I was off wandering through the rooms again looking for my friend, PJ.
I needed to leave on a trip that would take me far away and I wanted to say goodbye to him before I left, but I couldn't find him. I knew he was with one of the other girls he is dating, but I didn't care about that. I just wanted to say goodbye. Somehow I knew that he knew I was looking for him and it really bothered me that he didn't care enough just to come say goodbye. During the whole dream I had a feeling of discouragement that hurt in my heart.

Crazy dreams. I don't know what they all mean. I frequently dream about big houses like museums and wandering through them. I usually am alone and I usually am enjoying myself immensly, but not in this dream. Sometimes I can fly in these houses. Always, they have secret rooms and hallways.

coding coding do da doot da doo

Yeah so this storm that is over us is way excited to be here today. It's like a little kid, throwing its nasty little snowflakes sideways, backward, frontward, upward, downward... every which way. Personally, I wasn't quite finished enjoying the fall yet. Oh well.

SO... I cleaned my desk off and now I'm ready for a LONG "happy" day of coding my website for school. GOODY! I think my sarcasm is about as thick as this storm outside. lol. Anyway, I can't stall any longer. I have to go get to work on it! This is probably one of the very few times in my life that my desk will be this clean so I thought I should record it on digi-film for posterity. :D

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Photo Tag

I was tagged by Apryle for a game called photo tag. You go to your photos folder then you go to the 4th folder down and pick the 4th photo in it. This is what I found in mine. lol. Funny it turned out to be one of my most recent photos. I was in the middle of saying something and I think I look majorly goofy besides which; why did I think it was a good idea to play on the playground in a dress? Well I just did. :D How often do I get to play on a playground as awesome as this?

Anyway, so to keep playing tag, I tag Andrea, Elisa, Care and Angela or anyone else who feels like playing.

School is still stressing me out like a 1300 pound gorrilla sitting on my shoulders all the time. I'm still enjoying it, maybe a little less than earlier on in the semester, but its just till December. My roommates must be stressed out lately too. Man they left a big mess in the kitchen/living room. I am sure they'll get around to cleaning it up.

Hugs for everyone! P.S. Did you enjoy conference?

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Where did you all go?

You all must be very busy. I haven't had a comment in a while. Did I get boring??? sigh. ;)

Thursday, October 2, 2008

What does it all mean???

I have the strangest dreams. Last night's masterpiece involved 5 talking Katydid bugs. Four of them had a bad attitude and were quite troublesome! Lol. Let me preface the story a little.

Before bed I was sitting in my living room watching a show on t.v. when I noticed one of these large bugs high on the wall. They kind of creep me out with how they move so slow and calculating. And I ESPECIALLY hate how their nasty little exoskeletons make that horrible noise when they land on stuff or when they bump into stuff. They are only slightly less yucky than a grasshopper to me. Grasshoppers are definitely evil.

This nasty little green bug had flown over to the door and was clinging onto it like it wanted out. So, seeing as it had displayed enough intelligence to land on the door, I thought I'd be kind and let it outside. I went over there and opened the door. The bug sat there and then SSSSlowwwly crawled on top of the door and just sat there. Annoyed, I took a piece of paper to gently coax it to go out.

It chose to freak out and drop to the floor making that horrible hollow click with its exoskeleton.
I did the only right thing to do in that situation. I freaked out too, made a little yelp did a boogie dance across the room and dropped the paper.

Right. So anyway, it sat there in front of the door, on the floor - facing the door patiently waiting for me to let it out. I opened the door and with all the excitement of a sloth it moved onto the footplate of the door.

Finally I took the paper and scooted him out onto the porch, slammed the door and repeated my earlier boogie dance (minus the yelp). So yeah. This is where my subject matter from my dream must've come from.

Anyway, so in this dream I was in my room and noticed the 4 katydids sitting on the windowsill. Some of them were standing upright on their back legs and leaning back against the window with their arms behind their heads.

I told them they needed to leave and that I had already escorted one of their friends outside earlier (referring to the one I really did let out). At this point they stopped talking to each other, cocked their heads and looked at me like I was SO rude to ask them to leave my room. So once again I found a paper and tried to use it to push them off the windowsill. They climbed onto something round like a poll (I didn't pay attention to what it was or why it was there) and they kept going around it while I scooted them trying to get them to fly downstairs to the door so I could let them out.

I got all sorts of frustrated and walked away. One of them got nervous and flew and landed on the floor in front of me and I put a glass over it and said - "That's what you get for being insubordinate."

Then I woke up. Oh what does it all mean? Lol.