Friday, September 26, 2008

kitten



Wanna see a picture of a kitten? Well there you go! This little guy was living at our house illegally for a few weeks. Then the landlord found out about him and we had to take him to Pet'sMart's adoption center. Isn't he cute! He was a sweet little cat.

I miss him right now. I miss having something to crave my attention and that will eat anything I put in front of it even if I did burn it and that likes to wrestle with me. I need to call someone over to my house to wrestle.

Anyway, this week at school was okay. Kind of rough but survivable.

I went up the canyon tonight and had roasted marshmallows and hot-dogs with Peaches (PJ). That was fun. I just got done throwing my clothes in the wash but I think I'll go throw me in the wash... cuz I smell like a camp fire and I look like a grease monkey. Good night!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Hours Cut

Well I had my hours cut back at work. My boss was very understanding about school and homework and what-not. I am so grateful! Hopefully that'll make it so I can go to bed before 2 in the morning once in a while cuz I won't be up doing my homework all friggin night! Heaven bless my boss!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Freedom of Choice

Earlier this week a friend of mine brought up the issue of abortion and what each of the two major political candidates wants to do about it. Its had me thinking a lot all week. As far as I can gather from their websites; the republican candidate says we should repeal Roe vrs Wade and turn the decision back to the individual states. The democratic candidate says that we should not make abortion illegal but we should have programs to fully educate women who are thinking about doing this and give tax benefits to those who carry the child to term and give it up for adoption.

If abortion were made completely illegal in the US, do you think we'd have a lot of people going to Mexico or Canada to have it done or worse, in the back of a dirty old van or something. Yikes!

I guess it all comes down to agency again. I believe a child is a person at the moment of conception. I also believe that in cases of incest, rape or jeopardizing the mother's life, abortion is something to be prayerfully considered. The point is that those are the things that I believe and I'm not going to force them on anyone else. I agree that we need to make education about this decision mandatory before anyone goes through with it. And I like the idea of giving people incentives to choose life. I know of so many people who'd be willing to adopt... who would make wonderful parents... who would PAY all the expenses.

At the same time I guess I'm sorta hypocritical because I don't think all the states would make the right choice on the abortion topic if the decision went to individual states... And I know that in spite of incentives and wonderful programs, there would still be people who chose to have abortions regardless.

The point is, I don't think the issue of abortion is going to sway my vote one way or the other because I don't think either candidate has the fix-it answer.

I guess I'll go to bed now. Tell me what you think about this topic.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Super Woman or Foolish Female?



Well it's time to make some decisions. I have over-scheduled myself and unfortunately I can't do without any sleep for so many weeks on end. (I don't know how you mothers of young infants survive!) Anyway, I have to decide if I'm going to let my minimum wage, part time job go or school. Um... DUH! Where's the choice in that! lol. The hard thing is that if I let my job go I'll have to borrow a few more thousand dollars from somewhere and that sucks... but graduation is worth it right? (everyone repeat after me; "RIGHT!!!") So that sucks because I like my job and I like feeling like I am a contributor to society. AND I hate confrontation which will have to occur to be released from this job.

*sigh....*

If only I had super human powers.

Thank you to those who offered to let me let off steam last week. I am sorry I didn't call any of you... I haven't had time to let off steam. Maybe when I quit my job I'll have time to be stressed out! lol. Seriously, I have nothing to complain about when I look around at what other people have to deal with! But thank you to everyone who cares enough to let me feel stressed even though in comparison I have no right!

Friday, September 12, 2008

Add it to the list

So I got back the news again from the doctor. This time I wrote down the name of the new disease. Eosinophilic Esophagitis. The gist is that it causes my throat to swell up and not be able to swallow solids and if it's bad enough, not even liquids. Its been happening almost every day for a while now. But I started an acid reflux drug and I didn't have the problem today. My throat hurts a lot still though.
I think part of that is that I'm trying not to cry. I haven't had enough sleep in a few weeks so I'm more than a little sensitive to everything going on. Its a lot of stuff that is probably too personal to be appropriate to share with the whole world in a blog... But I kinda wish I had a sympathetic, non-judging, non-involved in it ear to listen to me whine. I sorta want to get it out. Don't really need anyone to fix it. I can fix it or it will fix itself in time... Just want to relieve some of the pressure.
Oye. I am really blabbering on now arent I. I'll be off for now.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

I'm a tad frazzled


How interesting it is to me that when I am super super busy, I always wish that I had more time to do the things I enjoy doing so much. But when I actually get a little extra time, I waste it. I lay around in a vegetable-like state. Where is the happy medium? That would be good to know; and can it really be achieved?

I am in the 3rd week of school and I am still caught up in all of my classes. This is the first time this has happened in 6 semesters!!! I am quite amazed and distrusting of it all at the same time. I am just waiting for everything to come crashing down. And it isn't as though it is far from doing that. I have been late and with sub-par work several times... but I guess that's how we get through. I am not supposed to hold onto it, because that just gets in the way of what is going on in the here and now.

Anyway, I do love my classes and my work and hope that I can keep up with it all the way through December.

For those who wanted to know, my classes are as follows;
Graphic Interface Design (this is a beginner's web design class)
Brand Identity Design (the very important concept of branding and logos etc.)
Portfolio Preparation
Printmaking
Revelations (Yes, from the Bible.)

Its a pretty busy schedule. I work on Tuesday's Thursdays and Fridays. So basically, I am busy from 9 in the morning till 6 every week day and that doesn't even include homework time. OYE!
But don't let this whining post lead you to believe that I am not enjoying myeself. I REALLY am enjoying the semester! I'm just a little worn out at the end of each day... oh yeah and at the start of the day and the middle of the day. :D

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

A lot on my mind


My brain is swollen. There's a lot of synapses firing and a lot of introspection going on with me lately. Among the list are the following;
  • School assignments (Still caught up, but it's hard to keep up)

  • My health (I've got some strange thing going on that requires surgery on a regular basis.)

  • Money (Bills)

  • Family (I miss them. I hardly know what's going on with them anymore.)

  • Dating (Way too much to explain... Lots of confusing feelings going on.)

  • Spirituality (Working on a transformation and finding it a lot of work.)

  • Politics (Who's going to make my life and the country better... really.)

  • etc

(By the way, I am proud of myself; I wrote out the html code for that bulleted list above. :D See, school is paying off!)

Anyway, It is all weighing so heavy. I am feeling a little discouraged because I am not able to do what I want to with any of those things right now. Muddling through is a part of life, but I do get disheartened when I have to muddle so much. Anyway, two projects are due tomorrow so I better get busy huh.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Well Shut my mouth and call me Martha

Lol. I suppose that comment on the fact that guys don't read my blog was rather inflammatory. I have been informed that they (at least one of them) DO read my blog.

Anyway, I am off to portfolio class. I have a web design class and I'm doing a website this month. I have to decide if it's going to be on Puppy Training, Proper Clothes fitting techniques, or Miniature Dollhouse making. I'd love to put it up for a vote. What would you be most interested in reading about on a website?

Thanks!!!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Flying Dreams

I keep having these dreams that I can fly. This past week has had 2 of them! It has been so fun! I love flying in my dreams. The last time I was on vacation in some un-named country. There was a lake with lots of fish in it and even whales. There were a lot of green hills and there was a theme park. I wanted to fly up high and see everything from afar so I walked fast and waved my arms up and down and pulled myself into the air.

Lol. Thinking about it, I would look SO silly doing this! But in my dreams I don't see myself from outside myself. I just do it to lift myself up. after you get off the ground it isn't hard and you hardly have to move your arms at all, unless you want to go higher. Then it's like you're floating. To control how fast you come down you pull your arms in or lengthen them out. The wind usually drives where I am going in my flying dreams.

Well my first week of school was very busy. I started a new job as well. I really like my classes and I really like my job. I feel like I am keeping my head above water. Barley. :) But that's usual. I suppose I should get back to homework that is due tomorrow.

But before I go... I just have to say; isn't it funny that a guy will be totally interested in where your blog is and want to know the address and read it until you give him the address thereof. Lol. Then he never visits it! I have had 2 guys ask me all about my blog. Ask if their names had been mentioned (which I told them that they had). Then they were SO insistant on reading it. So I gave them the address and neither one of them has visited it once! Guys are nerds!