Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Here's a few of the pictures from Christmas time. The one with me and the three ladies you probably don't know is of my boss and coworkers. We had a Christmas lunch just before I left for the break. I love working at the Women's Center!
Poor Buddy has had that Victorian collar/bucket on his head for several weeks! He doesn't get it off until at least next week. He had his dew claws removed and it takes a long time to heal.
Aunt Julie made a great gingerbread christmas tree with Andrea and her kids. Then a few days later she made on with Elisa and her boys. I didn't get pictures of that event.
Little Brooklyn just loves her new piano!
At any rate, that's all for now. I sure have had a fun Christmas vacation! Can't believe it's almost time for school to start again! Only one more semester! WOO!
Thursday, December 25, 2008
I tried to feel the Christmas spirit this season, but I have felt it only for an instant last night. It's been a dark and difficult year. I have gained much. It has been through heavy heavy heartache that I have survived though. Please don't get me wrong, I have been so blessed! Sometimes lifes learning hurts. Over the past while I've sunk into a dark and lonely sadness and I'm afraid to say my flame of hope has diminished significantly. Months stacked on months of darkness and misunderstanding can do that to a person.
There's a few things I am trying to do to come back from this devastation. I'm trying to think more positively about things. (This is VERY difficult when you've gotten into a negative pattern). I'm also trying to just tell myself hopeful things even if I don't believe me right now. I'm trying to hope that our Father in Heaven will help me.
Sounds pretty awful doesn't it. I hope it turns out right. :s I'm trying to be resilient. Is it the 4th watch yet?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I hate shopping for men! It is difficult! With women, or children it is easy. There are all manner of delightful little nothings you can get for them, but men are so difficult! You have the choice of spending a whole ton of money on something they'll really like, food, socks, or a gift card. How boring is that to give every year! Don't the men get bored of receiving these gifts? (Other than the super expensive ones of course). Sigh. It's not their fault... they're just tough. :(
Monday, December 15, 2008
I had the best dream last night. I was playing with this darling little baby boy! He was giggling and throwing his toys and playing all sorts of fun games with me. We were sitting on the floor next to a couch and there were a few other little kids around. I loved that baby so much! It's crazy. I was so sad to wake up and not have him. Oh well. I was a little relieved to wake up and not have to change a diaper or deal with spit up, etc. lol.
I hope I get a baby someday. :)
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Sweet! The first of my grades has come in. It was for Logo Design. I got an A-!!! I am excited about that because I was just praying for a B- in all of my classes! I really do feel like I've grown a lot in my design skills. I still need lots of practice, no doubt, but I have come a long way.
Today some girls from my Design class and I are hopefully going swimming. The snow may prevent us... We'll see. Unlike this picture above, we will all be wearing suits and none of us will be male. :D Apparently this artist painted this picture of all his art students taking a bath. Is that guy on the rock going to pinch the other guy's bum???? hmmmm..... kinky.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
I made it everyone! I just turned in my last final a few hours ago! YEA!!! I am feeling so great right now! Other than the stupid cold! Well I guess that's what I get for putting myself through all that stress without appropriate sleep, food or exercise.
So I'm working on a campaign for the Women's Center. I'm trying to come up with something inspiring to; 1. spread awareness about our office and 2. inspire people to help by donating to our scholarship funds. Anyone got any catchy phrase ideas that could go on a t-shirt or poster?
Thursday, December 4, 2008
It's impressive what a bucket-load of make-up can do for the un-dead. I had my portfolio final this morning and we were supposed to come looking our best. Well, since I've only gotten 3 or 4 sporadic hours of sleep in the past week, I was amazed that I was able to pull this off. Granted, if you got any closer than 10 feet away from me you probably could see through all that make up! I am sick as a dog! I've just about lost my voice and I feel like crap! But all my hard finals are finished and I only have one left on Teusday, so I am a happy happy happy girl!
Hmmm... now that I look at the pictures, I am not so sure I agree with the decision of hairdo. Those bangs are .... Well anyway, I am finished.
It feels so wrong not to be working on a HUGE project right now! lol. Yeah!
By the way, the 2nd vacuum that "mysteriously" dissapeared last week has been found. It has not been returned yet, but it has been found. Sigh. One of Monica's friends came and took it without asking. Not cool.
But now I'm just rambling. I'm going to go take a long awaited rest! Hugs and kisses for everyone!
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Aaaaah! I don't think I can take anymore of this irritating final projects preparation! I think my eyes are going to fall out of their sockets and my brain is going to ooze out of my ear!!!
Any vibes of strength and endurance sent my way will be much appreciated! It'll all be over on Friday!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
His kind sense of humor and calm confidence were so inspiring and so comforting to me. I know he is enjoying being back with his wife and doing all sorts of great things for everyone on the other side. I just miss him is all. I miss a lot of people and things that have moved on whether it be through death or through the natural process of life and becoming adults. My friends, my family, I miss you.
My roommate stole the vacuum again. Who knows what she did with it. It isn't in her room and none of the other roommates have it. She acted awfully guilty about it when asked. I think she's a kleptomaniac. I have had to lock my door every time I leave my room. I can't wait till May. I gatta get out of here! I pray I pass all my classes so that can happen!
Finals are due next week!!!! So needless to say, it is not going to be much of a holiday this week. Daaaahhh!!! Oh well.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Went on a fun date with PJ tonight. We went and saw "City of Ember". It was funny- we were the only ones in the theater. It was a good movie, but I see why it wasn't very popular. It was a bit slow moving and the stupidity of the characters annoyed both PJ and myself.
The point is that it was so fun to actually get asked out on a real date where my date actually paid for the entertainment... phenomenal. Lol. Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in some underground world where all the men have forgotten what it is they're supposed to do.
I.E: ask girls on real dates, open doors, say nice things. And maybe girls have forgotten that we're supposed to dress up, try to look cute, say nice things, give good back rubs... be independent enough.... Hmmm... what else is expected of us? I am sure I am missing a large list, but I think I'm going to cut it short and go to bed for now.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
The other day I went downtown to run a few errands.
I went into the local coffee shop for a snack.
I was only there for about 5 minutes, and when I came out, there was this cop writing out a parking ticket.
I said to him, 'Come on, man, how about giving a retired person a break'?
He ignored me and continued writing the ticket. His insensitivity annoyed me, so I called him a 'Nazi.'
He glared at me and then wrote out another ticket for having worn tires.
So I proceeded to call him a 'doghnut eating Gestapo.' He finished the second ticket and put it on the windshield with the first. Then he wrote a third ticket when I called him a moron in blue. This went on for about 20 minutes.
The more I talked back to him the more tickets he wrote.
Personally, I didn't really care. I came downtown on the bus, and the car that he was putting the tickets on had one of those bumper stickers that said, 'McCain 08.'
I try to have a little fun each day now that I'm retired.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Lol! As you can see, Halloween has taken its toll on my roommate Monica. Actually, she sleeps on the couch more often than she sleeps in her bed. It matters not that the rest of us roommates are bustling about the kitchen or vacuuming, She sleeps through any of it! When asked if she wouldn't rather go to her room so as not to be disturbed by the noise, she says, "I don't want to get up." I think the reason she doesn't sleep in her room is this....
She can't get to her bed! Yes, this morning since it is nearly 1:30 and she's still snoring away loudly in the living room, I kicked open her door to discover why she couldn't sleep in her own bed. I think she can't get to it. What a MESS!!! I noted also the location of most of the dishes in the house is in here. I was wondering where all my cooking pans went. I am going to make her bring them back to us later if I can get her to. Oh the joys of living with teenagers.
As for those of you who have criticized me for who I voted for... come on, I didn't give you a hard time for who you are voting for. I didn't just wake up one morning and decide who I was voting for, I have been researching the candidates for MONTHS! I have listened to both of them in their speaches, I have read policies that BOTH of them have suggested. I have prayed about my decision.
I like some of what McCain has to offer, but I like what Obama has proposed better. I think you are wrong about the socialist thing. The media has said things about that once or twice, but I've looked into it, because it did concern me... and if you go and you read his policies and not what other people are saying about his policies, I think you'll see that he's not a socialist.
I could go on and on, but let it suffice. It's much safer to remain neutral, but at some point in my life I have to take a stand and decide what I believe in even if it isn't popular. If I'm wrong and we all end up in Socialism, then you can call me and tell me it was all my fault. Anyway, I still love you all and I think things will be okay no matter which candidate gets elected.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Weeeeee! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! Splooosh! (Other horrible grinding noises) Bleh! Pllllbbbbttt!!!
Thud thud thud thud thud!
"It's hopeless doctor!"
....Beedeet beedeet beedeet... beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
...beedeet beedeet beedeet...
*clap clap clap clap*
"here we go again."
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Yea. I stood in line, got the little electronic card thingy, cast my ballot and got a happy little sticker. It actually just said, "I voted", but this one was already up online and I'm too lazy to scan in the one they gave me.
I am really tired of school tonight. There's 3 things due tomorrow and I've been on task all day and yet I'm nowhere close to finished. Frustrating. Well I better get back to it.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
You have to know that you're taking a risk when you cook something from a box whose pour spout has a drawing of a bunny butt on it!
That's what I call this mac and cheese. And it was. I ate this 4 hours before bed and 3 hours into my sleep I woke up with terrible pains in my stomach and spent an hour in the bathroom. I really think they put rabbit turds in their noodles! OYE! Never again!But in other news, Life is good. It's been super busy this semester. I'll be really busy all the way through December. I think it was way too soon to put together a countdown chain. I am all sorts of antsy to get through with school and waiting the last 7 months is killer. Oh well. It's worth it.
Here's a photo I took of myself the day I had to give a portfolio presentation last week. I was going for professional, yet fun. I think I'd add a little more "fun" next time. But this is what I had time for.
I did buy some awesome shoes though. These were 16 bucks. Pretty good. huh.
Im kinda lonley tonight. Miss my family. sigh. Anyway, everyone have a good week!
Friday, October 17, 2008
He spoke about feeling empty and ailen from the world. It makes perfect sense to me considering what he had to live through up to this point. He truly did not allow himself to feel anything. Nothing at all... indifference.
This last week he told me about an experience he had the week before. By some miracle he was able to feel something so deeply that it totally threw him! I have never heard him speak in any manner other than pure elloquence, but when he told this story he stuttered BAD and he shook. I know this sounds kind of common for someone who's gone through something emotional, but you don't know this guy. He truly was the ROCK. NOTHING got in. I'm not exaggerating!
Anyway, he said he doesn't know how the rest of the world does this whole thing where they have to feel things. Because it scares him (I'm assuming on that part). I was way sad that the emotion he experienced had to be such a painful one, but I've been praying for him for several years now and to see him make a step in the right direction; especially a step this big... Was miraculous! I am so excited for him. I know he's got a long Hellish road to travel, but I feel like he's going to make it and I can hardly contain my excitement for him!
Another miracle... Sweet little Brooklyn is starting to walk. She walked for me today. It was SO cute! You can tell she is SO proud of herself! She giggles and grins like crazy about it. I just want to squeeze that cute little baby! Oh I love her!
And I finished my website on time and my logo and I will finish my portfolio on time. Another miracle. Among several more that I can think of as profound. :D
I'm in a good mood this morning. I couldn't sleep cuz I kept daydreaming so I thought I'd get up and type about all the things I was so happily thinking about.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
So I went out to my car this morning to find 3 dead katiedids in front of the driver-side door! I had to pause for a moment and collect myself as it seemed so much that they were the katiedids from my dream come back to die in front of my car as if to say that it was MY fault for shoving them out into the cold! lol. What a way to start your morning.
Today has been a FABULOUS day! I finished and turned in my html website and although I don't like the finished product as much as I could, I'm done and it isn't stressing me out tonight so YEAH! Shaweeeeet! I feel great! AND I finished and turned in a logo for my other design class. AND I found out that my other HUGE project isn't due until next week, so I can actually breathe a little and work on that this weekend. Truly it was a mirical that I was able to get these things done this week. Yes, I have thanked Father in Heaven in my prayers!... Profusely!
So I'm in a good mood and kinda talkative but I'm going to stop myself because it's nearly 1 in the morning and I should try to sleep so I can work on that other huge assignment before Tuesday. Anyway- peace and love and kisses to everyone tonight!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
So I fell asleep doing homework today and had the strangest dream. I was lost in this huge house that was like a giant - multi-level RC-Willey or Ikea. All these different rooms that were decorated so nicely. I was playing with a baby and 2 little girls while also looking for their mother. Anyway, I found her and told her how great her children were. Then I was off wandering through the rooms again looking for my friend, PJ.
I needed to leave on a trip that would take me far away and I wanted to say goodbye to him before I left, but I couldn't find him. I knew he was with one of the other girls he is dating, but I didn't care about that. I just wanted to say goodbye. Somehow I knew that he knew I was looking for him and it really bothered me that he didn't care enough just to come say goodbye. During the whole dream I had a feeling of discouragement that hurt in my heart.
Crazy dreams. I don't know what they all mean. I frequently dream about big houses like museums and wandering through them. I usually am alone and I usually am enjoying myself immensly, but not in this dream. Sometimes I can fly in these houses. Always, they have secret rooms and hallways.
SO... I cleaned my desk off and now I'm ready for a LONG "happy" day of coding my website for school. GOODY! I think my sarcasm is about as thick as this storm outside. lol. Anyway, I can't stall any longer. I have to go get to work on it! This is probably one of the very few times in my life that my desk will be this clean so I thought I should record it on digi-film for posterity. :D
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Anyway, so to keep playing tag, I tag Andrea, Elisa, Care and Angela or anyone else who feels like playing.
School is still stressing me out like a 1300 pound gorrilla sitting on my shoulders all the time. I'm still enjoying it, maybe a little less than earlier on in the semester, but its just till December. My roommates must be stressed out lately too. Man they left a big mess in the kitchen/living room. I am sure they'll get around to cleaning it up.
Hugs for everyone! P.S. Did you enjoy conference?
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Before bed I was sitting in my living room watching a show on t.v. when I noticed one of these large bugs high on the wall. They kind of creep me out with how they move so slow and calculating. And I ESPECIALLY hate how their nasty little exoskeletons make that horrible noise when they land on stuff or when they bump into stuff. They are only slightly less yucky than a grasshopper to me. Grasshoppers are definitely evil.
This nasty little green bug had flown over to the door and was clinging onto it like it wanted out. So, seeing as it had displayed enough intelligence to land on the door, I thought I'd be kind and let it outside. I went over there and opened the door. The bug sat there and then SSSSlowwwly crawled on top of the door and just sat there. Annoyed, I took a piece of paper to gently coax it to go out.
It chose to freak out and drop to the floor making that horrible hollow click with its exoskeleton.
I did the only right thing to do in that situation. I freaked out too, made a little yelp did a boogie dance across the room and dropped the paper.
Right. So anyway, it sat there in front of the door, on the floor - facing the door patiently waiting for me to let it out. I opened the door and with all the excitement of a sloth it moved onto the footplate of the door.
Finally I took the paper and scooted him out onto the porch, slammed the door and repeated my earlier boogie dance (minus the yelp). So yeah. This is where my subject matter from my dream must've come from.
Anyway, so in this dream I was in my room and noticed the 4 katydids sitting on the windowsill. Some of them were standing upright on their back legs and leaning back against the window with their arms behind their heads.
I told them they needed to leave and that I had already escorted one of their friends outside earlier (referring to the one I really did let out). At this point they stopped talking to each other, cocked their heads and looked at me like I was SO rude to ask them to leave my room. So once again I found a paper and tried to use it to push them off the windowsill. They climbed onto something round like a poll (I didn't pay attention to what it was or why it was there) and they kept going around it while I scooted them trying to get them to fly downstairs to the door so I could let them out.
I got all sorts of frustrated and walked away. One of them got nervous and flew and landed on the floor in front of me and I put a glass over it and said - "That's what you get for being insubordinate."
Then I woke up. Oh what does it all mean? Lol.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Wanna see a picture of a kitten? Well there you go! This little guy was living at our house illegally for a few weeks. Then the landlord found out about him and we had to take him to Pet'sMart's adoption center. Isn't he cute! He was a sweet little cat.
I miss him right now. I miss having something to crave my attention and that will eat anything I put in front of it even if I did burn it and that likes to wrestle with me. I need to call someone over to my house to wrestle.
Anyway, this week at school was okay. Kind of rough but survivable.
I went up the canyon tonight and had roasted marshmallows and hot-dogs with Peaches (PJ). That was fun. I just got done throwing my clothes in the wash but I think I'll go throw me in the wash... cuz I smell like a camp fire and I look like a grease monkey. Good night!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
If abortion were made completely illegal in the US, do you think we'd have a lot of people going to Mexico or Canada to have it done or worse, in the back of a dirty old van or something. Yikes!
I guess it all comes down to agency again. I believe a child is a person at the moment of conception. I also believe that in cases of incest, rape or jeopardizing the mother's life, abortion is something to be prayerfully considered. The point is that those are the things that I believe and I'm not going to force them on anyone else. I agree that we need to make education about this decision mandatory before anyone goes through with it. And I like the idea of giving people incentives to choose life. I know of so many people who'd be willing to adopt... who would make wonderful parents... who would PAY all the expenses.
At the same time I guess I'm sorta hypocritical because I don't think all the states would make the right choice on the abortion topic if the decision went to individual states... And I know that in spite of incentives and wonderful programs, there would still be people who chose to have abortions regardless.
The point is, I don't think the issue of abortion is going to sway my vote one way or the other because I don't think either candidate has the fix-it answer.
I guess I'll go to bed now. Tell me what you think about this topic.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Well it's time to make some decisions. I have over-scheduled myself and unfortunately I can't do without any sleep for so many weeks on end. (I don't know how you mothers of young infants survive!) Anyway, I have to decide if I'm going to let my minimum wage, part time job go or school. Um... DUH! Where's the choice in that! lol. The hard thing is that if I let my job go I'll have to borrow a few more thousand dollars from somewhere and that sucks... but graduation is worth it right? (everyone repeat after me; "RIGHT!!!") So that sucks because I like my job and I like feeling like I am a contributor to society. AND I hate confrontation which will have to occur to be released from this job.
If only I had super human powers.
Thank you to those who offered to let me let off steam last week. I am sorry I didn't call any of you... I haven't had time to let off steam. Maybe when I quit my job I'll have time to be stressed out! lol. Seriously, I have nothing to complain about when I look around at what other people have to deal with! But thank you to everyone who cares enough to let me feel stressed even though in comparison I have no right!
Friday, September 12, 2008
I think part of that is that I'm trying not to cry. I haven't had enough sleep in a few weeks so I'm more than a little sensitive to everything going on. Its a lot of stuff that is probably too personal to be appropriate to share with the whole world in a blog... But I kinda wish I had a sympathetic, non-judging, non-involved in it ear to listen to me whine. I sorta want to get it out. Don't really need anyone to fix it. I can fix it or it will fix itself in time... Just want to relieve some of the pressure.
Oye. I am really blabbering on now arent I. I'll be off for now.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
How interesting it is to me that when I am super super busy, I always wish that I had more time to do the things I enjoy doing so much. But when I actually get a little extra time, I waste it. I lay around in a vegetable-like state. Where is the happy medium? That would be good to know; and can it really be achieved?
I am in the 3rd week of school and I am still caught up in all of my classes. This is the first time this has happened in 6 semesters!!! I am quite amazed and distrusting of it all at the same time. I am just waiting for everything to come crashing down. And it isn't as though it is far from doing that. I have been late and with sub-par work several times... but I guess that's how we get through. I am not supposed to hold onto it, because that just gets in the way of what is going on in the here and now.
Anyway, I do love my classes and my work and hope that I can keep up with it all the way through December.
For those who wanted to know, my classes are as follows;
Graphic Interface Design (this is a beginner's web design class)
Brand Identity Design (the very important concept of branding and logos etc.)
Revelations (Yes, from the Bible.)
Its a pretty busy schedule. I work on Tuesday's Thursdays and Fridays. So basically, I am busy from 9 in the morning till 6 every week day and that doesn't even include homework time. OYE!
But don't let this whining post lead you to believe that I am not enjoying myeself. I REALLY am enjoying the semester! I'm just a little worn out at the end of each day... oh yeah and at the start of the day and the middle of the day. :D
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
My brain is swollen. There's a lot of synapses firing and a lot of introspection going on with me lately. Among the list are the following;
- School assignments (Still caught up, but it's hard to keep up)
- My health (I've got some strange thing going on that requires surgery on a regular basis.)
- Money (Bills)
- Family (I miss them. I hardly know what's going on with them anymore.)
- Dating (Way too much to explain... Lots of confusing feelings going on.)
- Spirituality (Working on a transformation and finding it a lot of work.)
- Politics (Who's going to make my life and the country better... really.)
Anyway, It is all weighing so heavy. I am feeling a little discouraged because I am not able to do what I want to with any of those things right now. Muddling through is a part of life, but I do get disheartened when I have to muddle so much. Anyway, two projects are due tomorrow so I better get busy huh.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Anyway, I am off to portfolio class. I have a web design class and I'm doing a website this month. I have to decide if it's going to be on Puppy Training, Proper Clothes fitting techniques, or Miniature Dollhouse making. I'd love to put it up for a vote. What would you be most interested in reading about on a website?
Monday, September 1, 2008
Lol. Thinking about it, I would look SO silly doing this! But in my dreams I don't see myself from outside myself. I just do it to lift myself up. after you get off the ground it isn't hard and you hardly have to move your arms at all, unless you want to go higher. Then it's like you're floating. To control how fast you come down you pull your arms in or lengthen them out. The wind usually drives where I am going in my flying dreams.
Well my first week of school was very busy. I started a new job as well. I really like my classes and I really like my job. I feel like I am keeping my head above water. Barley. :) But that's usual. I suppose I should get back to homework that is due tomorrow.
But before I go... I just have to say; isn't it funny that a guy will be totally interested in where your blog is and want to know the address and read it until you give him the address thereof. Lol. Then he never visits it! I have had 2 guys ask me all about my blog. Ask if their names had been mentioned (which I told them that they had). Then they were SO insistant on reading it. So I gave them the address and neither one of them has visited it once! Guys are nerds!