House Sitting

Hey everyone! I just learned how to make animated gifs in Photoshop. So pardon the old photos here... Just testing one out.

Here's how I've been feeling at work... "er... I can't come up with any creative ideas today!" lol. No. My job is rewarding and challenging at the same time. I do have a hard time trying to shape my designs into what the boss is looking for. I think with time as I get to know what he likes it'll get easier. I stress a lot about it right now though. Sometimes I think I haven't got a creative bone in my body. I get a new assignment and my mind just goes blank. I hope as time goes on all that creative juice inside me gets flowing again.

This week I am house sitting for my aunt in Salt Lake City. You can see behind me that I have a cat to keep me company. That's Chloe. I've known her since she was a kitten. We're pals. She likes to snuggle with me.


Anyway, that's what's been happening with me lately. Really not a lot going on. I'm on a medication that is making me break out like crazy and making it hard to sleep so I feel like a grumpy, whiny, hideous troll this week... ha ha. See you later.

Enough is Enough!

I have just about had enough with the murderous beast I live with. I can't prove which one did it but one of my cats keeps bringing in birds and mice and squirrels! All mostly dead. Tonight I came down to my room to find a mass of feathers and a lone head of a sparrow.... no body, just the head. Does that mean they ate the rest of it? Or is it hiding somewhere in my room that I couldn't see.

Help! I've already put bells on their collars. Any ideas? Anyone....

Fireworks & Happy Birthday

Here's a few photos to catch you up on what we've been up to around here. We went to my favorite place for fireworks, Sugarhouse Park, on the 4th.


Bryce enjoying his glow necklace

Then this week was my sister's birthday. We had a nice dinner here and gave her presents. :)

Fake smile

Real Smile

I'm still not feeling great. I really hope this doesn't last much longer. I really miss feeling good... or even okay. But I'm hanging in there.

My boss is leaving for a vacation on Wednesday and wont be back until the following friday!!! YIKES! I am so nervous. I'll be on my own. Hope it all works out! I'm sure it will but my nerves are tense at the thought. :s

Photo Shoot & My Ramblings

So I've been at my new job for a week and a few days. So far so good. Yesterday was my first photo shoot. We are putting out our fall line soon and so of course we need photos for the catalogs and stores and web site so we organized a photo shoot with local kids. (If you want to get your munchkin in one of our photo shoots, call me and I'll tell you how to apply.)

Anyway, the photo shoot was fun. Lots of cute kids. It was an all day affair. We got to the site around 9 and finished up around 4. I have a lovely sunburn. Yes, I put on sunblock... and YES, I missed some spots. D'oh! Oh well... I'll be a lobster for a while.

Even though I like my new job, I must say I HATE starting new jobs. I am such a nervous wreck not knowing how things work or if I'm doing okay or what I'm doing. For the next few weeks I will be wondering every day if I'll survive. My boss is very cool though. He's super patient and fun to work with.

In other news, I'm still not feeling like myself. I know this has to wear off sometime, but it's scary and I feel like I'm losing myself and everyone I love. The past two days I've kind of gotten paralyzed in front of the tv after work. I sit there and wonder what the point is in my life. Is it just to work? Does anyone else ever wonder what to do with their life? I kinda wish I was a mom. It seems to me that would feel really purposeful. What kind of questions run through your minds, you mom's out there?

I guess the thing I really want the most is meaningful relationships with friends and family. I don't want to feel alone. (I know, just like everyone else). Anyway, that's what's been on my mind today. What's on your mind?

Starting my new job

So I start my new job tomorrow. YAY! I am super excited about it. And of course I am a little nervous to start something new.

I don't have a lot to say today but I wanted to let y'all know I'm still out here. I'm still working on medications and wow... I don't feel good! So any and all thoughts or prayers to help are appreciated. Mostly I just feel anxious all the time right now. I'm praying a lot.

Thats all for now.

Here's to hoping that I can be myself again soon!!!

Love you all!

This about sums it up

My medication's not working this month. I'm trying to be positive and fake it a bit longer. Fake fake fake. See me over here smiling and trying to make this real! Lol. Sigh. I want to laugh because something is funny and that heavy thing in my heart or stomach isn't blocking it.

HA HA HA HA. hmm. Not working.

I just needed to vent for a second. Anybody want to go do something with me?

The new job starts on the 21st. Until then I'm working for Media Communications. They've been extra nice about the whole thing. The one person I was worried about is the most excited for me. I guess she has her own designer anyway. I'm excited to get started... There's always that first six weeks or so that is tough while you're getting used to a new job but I think I am going to love this one.

News. I have news!

I got the job at Naartjie Kids! I can't tell you how surprised I am and how happy! I have to figure out how I am going to tell Media Communications. Man I HATE confrontation! But I'll figure it out. Just thought I'd give y'all an update!

Kayaking

I finally got to go Kayaking! We went up past Pineview Reservoir in Ogden to a little place called Causey Reservoir.



Keeping a dog balanced in a kayak is quite a trick! Good work dad!



And just for fun, here's a picture of kitty after her bath. Can you see how insulted she is that I got her wet! lol.

I love this picture. Whoever drew it rocks. I found it online. Though today I wish to use it in response not to confusion... but less-than-impress-ed-ness. I went into the D.I. to find some little things and they were playing country. I tried to have an open mind... but this picture fits real well with how I feel about country music. To all country fans... Don't take offense... To each their own eh.

I had an interview with a place called Naartjie Kids clothes on Wednesday. It went really well. This is the second time I've interviewed with them. They were very complimentary of my portfolio again. Oh I hope for that job. It sounds like a lot of fun and it pays well. Until then, I will stay with Media Communications, which is an okay place to work... just no benefits and having a hard time getting officially hired.

I know, kind of boring... But I felt like posting, so there you go.

And....

Yeah... they didn't tell me. Who's surprised?

And the Verdict is...

They say they'll tell me on Tuesday (my birthday) if I get that job. I'm SO stressed about it today.
There's a project that I didn't get finished today that I needed to and so I'm being asked to come in tomorrow (sans pay) and finish it up. Not demanded... but asked. It bothers me a little. I won't stay with them if this happens often.


Anyway, I feel so slow! I feel like a legless hamster in a running wheel: GOING NOWHERE! And super uber stressed about the whole thing.

This hamster has legs, so you'll have to imagine one without and then you'll get the idea of how I feel. lol. So that's what is going on in my neck of the woods.